What is going on?

Bah! What is going on with life these days? EVERYTHING has changed since the last time I posted here. I feel as if everything I have been planning on in life has taken a different course than I had ever thought possible. Well, “where am I?” you ask. Let me fill you in.

I’m at my parent’s house “watching” a movie I would never have thought I would. It’s a movie about Julia Child and some chick that writes a blog. It’s called “Julie and Julia”, and it’s surprisingly good. Just don’t tell anyone that I said that. Anyway, I’ll get to this in a minute. Let me tell you what brought me here:

I’m no longer engaged. I’m not going to go into details, but life has taken me from that path and set me to figuring out what I’m going to do with my life. It’s an odd sensation: I’m 26 years old, and would have thought that by now I would at least have some clue as to where I am headed. But apparently that’s not the case.

In this movie you see these people who have found things they love: food, their spouses, doing something that changes your life; and I have none of that. Except for perhaps the food, but you probably couldn’t tell by looking at me. I feel as though I have been missing something in my life, and I need to find that. Living at the parent’s house is not something that makes life feel like it is going anywhere. Nor is working at a retail joint, getting by paycheck to paycheck. But you know, I think it’s one of those things that is teaching me patience.

My current plans are to actually make plans. I want to move out. Get a place downtown. I’ve always loved that kind of atmosphere. I think it’s time I focus on doing things to get my life in order, and everything else will fall into place. I need to be more productive and get back into shape; not that I’m out of shape, mind you, I’m just not in shape either. All in all, I have a lot of work to do. With two jobs, and going back to school, life will get very busy, but I’m determined to make the most of it.

To end: If you haven’t listened to the new Weezer CD, “Raditude”, you should. Good shit. A little different than their original stuff, but I really like it.

A lot of catching up to do…

Damn. I really don’t even know where to start. I guess is with the biggest news: I got engaged. So… I guess it’s not really “news” by now, because it happend like a month ago, but it is still the biggest event on which to write. It is weird to me that it has already been that long. Part of me feels like it just happened yesterday, and the other feels like it has been years since I’ve seen Nikki. I miss her.

I’m going to talk her up for a minute. I love her. So much. She is doing a lot of things on her own that I am supposed to be there for. Not to actually “help” her plan, as everyone knows it’s the bride who gets the final call on all this stuff; but more for moral support, and someone to bounce ideas off of. She has done a lot of work in a short amount of time: wedding dresses for her and the ‘maids, reception hall, color selection… tons of stuff. Has even started registering (without me!! haha it’s cool) for gifts. Don’t worry, I’m going to do some from Spokane too. But now the biggest things left to do are all things that require my presence. Therein lies the problem.

For the past month I’ve been searching for a job in Arizona. I’ve applied at colleges, law firms, website providers all to no avail. I’ve even applied at Best Buy, who I already work for, and the best I have been offered are jobs that are part time or that pay less than what I already make….. /sigh. It’s been frustrating, because most companies are hesitant to hire someone they’ve never met, so phone interviews are almost a non-option. Lame. But I have some leads for jobs still, and am hopeful that something will happen soon. It has to.

Throughout all this, Nikki has been so patient, understanding and supportive of me and I feel so much appreciation for her for that.

A few other things I’ve been up to really quick. Still in school. Just finished my first term with the University of Phoenix and learned the hard way that deadlines are important. Oops! haha. Moved back to my parent’s house. This is good in that it helps me save money, and I get to eat mom’s home cooking! I haven’t eaten this good in years. Downsides include: yes, the obvious, I’m back at my parent’s house at 26. And worst of all I no longer live with my best friend Dan Cogburn. Makes me cry every day. Big tears of infinite sadness.

And lastly, the Bears are 3-1!!

So stoked on that. A 4-0 start would have been better, but it’s alright. We had a big win over the Steelers a few weeks ago, so it shows we’ve got the ability to compete. It’s been a good NFL season so far.

That’s it. I’ll end with a few CD’s to check out:

AFI: Crash Love

Minus The Bear: Highly Refined Pirates

Owl City: Ocean Eyes

Any of these 3 CD’s are guranteed to make your day better. So enjoy the day, wish us luck on the wedding plans, and find me a job dammit! I need to get to AZ ASAP!

I’m out.

RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRR!!!

So one of the things that I heard Bloggers do is rant. Well, a lot of things have bothered me today so I’m gonna give it a shot… here goes. Don’t judge me:

First of all, I HATE alarm clocks! I mean, don’t get me wrong, it’s a good device for helping you wake up, but they also yank me from slumber way too damn early. I dream nightly of going all Office Space on mine.

Second of all, I HATE this song! Anyone who can even remotely stand it should probably shoot themselves. REALLY? You think a beer gut on a woman is attractive and awesome? I’m gonna write a follow up to this song about how I love picking up trashy women in dive bars, with missing teeth and beer stains all over their clothes, and how they are too drunk to say no, so we went and spent the night in the horse stall of my neighbor’s barn. It’ll be awesome, I’ll make millions. Seriously. This is what people call talent?

Also, I hate smokers. And I don’t mean all of them. I know it’s a bad habit, I don’t judge you. And with most people it’s not a problem. Do your thing. I’m talking about the nasty ones! You don’t brush your teeth or chew gum. What few teeth you DO have are mis-colored and rotten. And you invade my space. I’m talking about the “I just chain smoked two packs to start my day, and I reek so bad that I can barely stand myself, so I’m going to stand next to you and make you suffer with me” kind of people. Holy hell, please have some personal hygeine.

And lastly. I hate bad drivers. Sure. Cut me off. Don’t give me the right of way. Cut across three lanes and beat me to the turn lane. BUT, if you’re going to do this, if you use a turn signal, I can forgive you. Don’t, and suffer my screams of rage! No joke, there is a lever next to the wheel that you push down if you want to go left, and up for right.

It’s not that hard. It shows people where you want to go so they can adjust speed accordingly. Try it. YOu have no idea how much I’ll hate you if you don’t.

But I’m not all hatred. I love a few things about today:

If you rock socks with sandals, I love you.

If you like boneless buffalo wings, I love you.

And lastly, I love my iPhone. It’s awesome.

There it is. My first rant. Wow. I feel a lot better. What are some things YOU hate?

- J

Here it is…

Blogging… not sure how this is all going to turn out. Should I fill this with all my private thought? Probably not. But I’d like to add to it periodically with things that interest me, or big events in my life.

For example. Just picked up this CD today. It’s the new album by The Used, called Artwork. If you’ve listened to their stuff and are a fan, get it. If you’re looking for some new music, and don’t mind a bit of screaming, get it. Basically, from what I’ve heard, I’m quite impressed. Reminds me more of their earlier work than their latest album or two.

Hmmmm…. what else….. I suppose the latest is I still work for the man. And by “the man” I don’t mean the government, but the company known as Best Buy. They control my life, at least financially… but I wish that weren’t the case. Looking for ways to make my days more enjoyable…. any thoughts?

Lastly, and obviously most important, is my lady. Nikki. Wow. Who would ever have thought that one person could have such an impact on your life? All I can say is thanks to Chantel for making the magic happen. Nikki is the most amazing woman I’ve ever met. Funny, smart, kind, beautiful, good style, puts everything into a relationship equally, easy to talk to and just all around fun to be around and perfect for me. I love her. So much. Basically what I’m saying is that if you aren’t me, you missed out on the perfect girl. She’s amazing!

Alright, enough bragging. There it is. My first blog entry. Not sure what the next post will look like, or contain. So stay tuned.

- J